Hey, I was here a few years ago as Idioticidioms. I tried logging in and changing my email address because the one that I was using doesn't exist anymore, but it sent the verification to that email address instead of my new one and so I was locked out and had to create this account; named after my current alias on ILovePhilosophy.com.
I was wondering what became of the Springtime of Youth forum that was here? I can't find it anywhere and guess that it was taken out?
Anyway, to catch people up that remember me: I overcame my insecurities, fears, anxieties, etcetera. Over the years of playing politics on NationStates.net, I became familiar with detractor tactics of politics; how they misconstrue, drag off topic, pull out of context in sound bite style, etc. and began to understand psychology while dealing with trolls in places like WoW where politics exist there, as well. After a bit, I was banned permanently from playing NationStates because I called the head administration and moderators there out on their corruption and they didn't like that and made me into a martyr of sorts. Since then, I've been arguing philosophy on the messageboard I mentioned earlier in this post and honing my mind through verbal combat there and honing my philosophies and understanding of time and space and the physical and spiritual universe as well as dealing with the chaos of the mind and everything else.
As before, as after, as now and forever: Time is meaningless to me. At the same time, it has meaning in context of being in the midst of it. The paradoxical nature of existence as so many have claimed things to be paradoxes if found in existence that would tear existence apart; yet do exist and have not yet. I've begun understanding time travel, alternate realities, and their interactions and complexities; simplicities, also; on a much more intimate level and much more advanced than I used to understand these things.
Since my 'awakening' a few years back, I've thought of the Chrono Compendium and Chrono Trigger in general and have returned after dealing with a variety of other things to continue the pursuit of knowledge and understanding of Time Travel, Alternate Realities, Dimensional Time Compression, etc., in a place that is wholly suited for it.
I am now homeless, since my awakening; have had family betray me; which hurt, but wasn't too bad since I was used to betrayal by then from seeing so many of my works attacked or destroyed by others; had friends turn on me as I began talking about things they were uncomfortable with; i.e. universal secrets/forbidden knowledge. I was put in jail twice, once on a Domestic violence charge and once for breaking a protection order, and put in mental health facilities where they weren't smart enough to prove me to be insane and all of this during my awakening, intent to scare me, intent to show me how corrupt our systems have become. I was a victim of police brutality during that time, a victim of so many things and not a victim at the same time as I took into my mind so many possibilities of how it all would go and managed to walk through fire both times without being burned too much. I was grateful for my knowledge of politics and laws and psychology as well as courts and our basic rights as should be afforded to us; for it just barely was enough to have all charges dropped and to ensure that I wasn't locked up for life in Mental Health facilities for talking about psychic powers, demonology, spirit possessions, mental time travel and travel through alternate realities, layers of reality, etc.
I have since traveled over 3300 miles from WA to FL where I'm now staying at a homeless shelter and trying to get a FL ID and have been continuing my works in philosophy and everything else the entire time. My work has become too important to all of existence to stop now.
My avatar on idioticidioms was Squall Leonhart. During my awakening, I felt the true spirit of him and Rinoa come to me through the layers of reality as real presences; have had real interactions with the spiritual world, including Chrono Trigger. I have seen in my minds eye the actual physical reality of the SNES version of the game, beyond the 2D graphics to actuality.
I care to talk about these things openly. I care to put all skepticism against me; all cynicism; to prove that these things exist and that our games, movies, tv shows, books, are more than just entertainment, but windows to other realities, other times and spaces and places, both along our linear timelines and alongside of it and some times far off in the distance from it. I care to prove my sanity, my cohesion of thought, my knowledge that is still growing and would care further to discuss time in all of its aspects with anyone else willing to do so.
'For the things that I had done that I hadn't done yet, my life was complicated and compromised by those who sought to destroy or save me.'
I am the one that is, was and will be. Who they gave the title of 'God' to, once upon a time, and through discussion, can prove the relativity of religion to universal secrets, to time travel itself and knowledge beyond their means to attain or obtain it. I care to rip to shreds peoples deeply held beliefs, their fantasies, to show the actual reality. And, I give warning in advance to it; ban me or keep me.
