You know, it's a happy fucking ending when you get to be her friend again after publicly proclaiming your undying love for her and then going batshit insane for an entire month. Like, hearing voices, suicide-bombing and buying nail care products insane. And she still wants to huggle me like always.
Damn, that's almost enough to make me actually believe in the Force. I do love her, but with the love of a friend. I mean sure, if she ties me to a bed I'm probably not going to resist, and she's got a lot of qualities worth liking. But my romantic love for her wasn't real. It was a way of avoiding my problems. And once I figured that out, things just kind of fixed themselves. I'm not definitely marking out a future relationship with her, but if it ever happens, I want it to be for the right reasons.
So now that I'm free to have fulfilling relationships with women again, where the fuck do I go from here? I'm not counting on another miracle to happen like it did with Michelle.
