It's hard to accept that as any kind of victory, or end.
Dude, there was never "victory" (I don't know about "end") in the first place, not science not religion (or at least the religion I'm familiar with). The "victory" factor is an illusion most people chase after for the sake of defined purpose; not that it's bad in any way, but yes, "victory" is absurd as what the practitioners strive not to
win anything but simply being a better, capable person, even though their practices are found on certain goals. Although clarify on what you mean by it and we can discuss further.
I don't want to withdraw from life, achieve some kind of inner tranquility or Nirvana,...
That's all well and good, but how do you define
Nirvana? Oh,
and for my own personal amusement, how do you
pronounce it?
...and then die with no emotions but a slight, happy peacefulness.
There are absurd wars to be won; there's a love to be cultivated, a path to be hiked, a poem to be wrote, a species to be enhanced, and a planet to be illuminated. It is no doubt healthy to build a true appreciation for the absurdity of the human condition...
Note: A poem to be
written.
Becoming a monk probably had incredibly more allure back then.
Indeed. The definitions for Monk, Priest, Guru, Teacher, Elder, etc. were interchangeable back then. These
monks and
sages weren't really bullshiters; rather they were brilliant people who mastered science, art, philosophy
and survival. There's a good reason why
Sage often goes well with the term
Wise, even today. But when certain
Pakhandi Babas (False Prophets) appeared in the equation, all hell broke lose and many tried to separate science from art and religion. The progress was a good choice, though.
I know the Western concept of happiness is somewhat flawed (whether in human psychology or flawed attitudes like the Christian heaven)...
It's neither. The source of that flaw is in the ill-structured English language.
Ah, hell, it's our job as writers to fix it, like Shakespeare and others did.
...but I guess I just see more happiness in staying in the game and riding the ups and downs with a healthy attitude like that of Epicurus to moderate the bumps.
You're getting closer to the truth by the minute. When you get to it, I'll gladly welcome you.
Good luck on your job search, self-development and
World development! May the force of Torvalds, Vidocq, Augustus and Mitsuda be with you!.