OH MAH GAWD, how could a thread as awesome as this be left so virgin, and for so many years? This is rich, rich stuff.
1. When it comes to religion/spirituality, what do you believe, if anything?With regard to spiritual and cosmological philosophy I've settled on something that I can't quite put a name to, but I suspect it's closer to deism than anything else. I try to avoid preconceptions regarding "God." Its evolution as a concept throughout human history suggests that humanity can only misunderstand what it is to some degree, if we believe in its existence; all this time we've been projecting our own wishes and desires onto it, and thus God has evolved alongside humanity. One day, when we have the scientific tools to finally wrap our minds around the origins of our universe, we may simply overlook it without even realizing it, either because theistic attitudes have been lost by then or else because God does not meet our expectations of it.
The only characteristic I could think of to use as a test to separate what is God from what is not God is its ability to defy the laws of conservation of mass and energy; had
Steady State Theory held, God would essentially be the C-Field from which matter arises to maintain the universe's density. That's if I'm understanding it correctly, of course. The supposition of this "C-Field" suggests to me that the universe is essentially not a closed system; what lies beyond -- a region where the laws of physics would not seem to apply whatsoever -- would essentially be the "realm of God." For all the grief Lemaitre received over the potential theological implications of the Big Bang, it's ironic that the Steady State model would seem to lend itself to pseudo-religious belief far more than any other scientific theory, arguing purely from a cosmological standpoint.
It's much more difficult to argue for the existence of a God on a logical basis when it comes to the expansionary/contractionary cosmological model, where the universe's lifespan is essentially a succession of infinite Big Bangs followed by contractionary periods from my understanding. The laws of physics indicate that matter cannot be destroyed, which certainly suggests that the universe is infinitely long lived; but nor can it be created, which suggests our universe is a contradiction in its very existence. I'm not comfortable with this contradiction, unless we can make it not a contradiction by opening the system and exposing it to something that is analogous to the "C-Field" of the Steady State Theory; and that is what backs up my core preference to believe in something that is outside laws of physics that are liable to remain stable for the foreseeable future, and therefore "God"-like.
I guess I never saw God as a bearded dude in the sky; nor would I be able to tell for sure whether God has a consciousness. I do sometimes get a nice warm and fuzzy feeling while worshipping in my own way, but the most likely explanation is that it's the result of my own mind/body interaction aroused by the idea of doing something spiritual. I've found prayer a worthwhile stress reducer; just as SETI operators need an environment that minimizes cosmic white noise when they cast their gaze to the sky, someone who entertains the slightest hope of communing with the source of the universe needs a clear and calm mind free of the day's stresses.
I'm not sure that God is interested in justice. In fact, our common experience suggests precisely that if there is a God, it is not interested in human morality whatsoever; it was a brief look at the writings of a Sufi mystic that rammed this home for me. What a bitter pill to swallow for some of us! Although, this isn't necessarily a bad thing, and maybe it does constitute an expression of love for human beings. God, at the very least, is either a being or a realm not subject to the known laws of physics, or at least a subset of them; imagine the power it would have over us if it interfered in our lives -- pulled us out of every danger, stopped us before we were able to hurt another. Unless we were given complete freedom to do good and evil on our own terms, what else could we be other than God's marionettes?
Miracles would be an interesting thing if they're indeed real, and if I experienced one that was scientifically verifiable, it would force me to admit to possible direct interaction between God and the physical universe. A lot of the religiously-oriented miracles that have been described from time to time -- the stigmata always fascinate me -- could probably be explained by complex mind/body interaction when they're genuine.
As for beliefs regarding specific religious doctrine, I've only read the New King James version of the New Testament (published circa 1979) from cover to cover. It was a rich experience; in lieu of trying to put this into my own words for a second time, I'll just quote from an essay from back in senior year of undergrad.
[Within the New Testament I found]...what [Cornel] West terms the “Socratic commitment to questioning” – a “…questioning of ourselves, of authority, of dogma…a relentless self-examination and critique of institutions of authority, motivated by an endless quest for intellectual integrity and moral consistency” (16; emphasis mine). I personally attribute my own development of West’s Socratic commitment to the New Testament Book of John, the eighth chapter of which relates Jesus Christ’s refusal to stone an adulteress whose case apparently met the requirements for capital punishment earlier handed down by Moses (John 8:1-11). According to Matthew 5:17 Jesus told his followers that he had not meant to destroy Old Testament law but rather to fulfill it, yet clearly Jesus appealed to some ethical standard higher than scripture when confronted with the adulteress in John 8 (New Testament). Thus, paradoxically perhaps, religion taught me that I should in fact search outside the realm of antiquated scriptural codes for a universally correct morality. As for what such a morality might entail, I have come up with nothing better than that “…we should live with humility, love our neighbors, and do unto others as we would have them do unto us,” precisely the prophetic standard to which West subscribes (146).
...In order to distill prophetic messages of acceptance and humility from scripture, liberal Jews, Christians, and Muslims must set aside, or otherwise significantly re-interpret, certain teachings and practices endorsed by orthodox Abrahamic institutions. [Sam] Harris asks, in that case, why religious liberals would still defend the passage of Abrahamic scripture from one generation to the next, especially given the existence of Eastern religious traditions like Jainism, which needs no reinterpretation to communicate the prophetic moral principles West sees in Judaism, Christianity, and Islam. I would contend that the unique value of Abrahamic religion lies in the fact that those who find it necessary to distance themselves from Jewish, Christian, or Islamic orthodoxy develop a valuable distrust of authority that they carry with them into civic life. Religious authorities are among the first children born into the Abrahamic tradition encounter in life – be they priests explaining official Church doctrine during CCD lessons or clerics instilling the Qur’an into madrasah enrollees. If one concludes that the scripture from which these individuals teach is an imperfect guide to morality, then he or she has established within his or her mind the permissibility of questioning authority in general. It takes significant courage to reject part or all of a holy text accepted as truth by successive generations of one’s ancestors; scrutinizing a politician who has been in office less than one lifetime is a far less outstanding feat in comparison. West finds a “…deep democratic energy…” in the Socratic commitment to questioning, and it is perhaps for this reason that he believes prophetic Christians have a key role to play in perfecting social justice in the United States (16, 162).
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Selected Bibliography for Compendiumites
Harris, Samuel. Letter to a Christian Nation. New York: Vintage Books, 2006.
West, Cornel. Democracy Matters. New York: Penguin Group, 2004.
Note that I tend to view Jesus as wholly human, although I am tempted to ignore Nietzsche and call Jesus an example of a true Übermensch, inasmuch as Jesus acted according to his own moral code and did not settle on deferring to the moral codes of his own forebears. To me, Jesus is a symbol of human evolution; His value lies not in the
state of his moral code at the time, but the
change in state that he was willing to produce. To me, Jesus is about producing moral momentum.
2. How did you come to believe it?I hope there are others out there who have also found something like Cornel West's "Socratic Commitment to Questioning" through a religious text, and who did so after being exposed to official religious doctrine. I, for better or worse, cannot make that claim.
I specifically asked for the New Testament from my parents after becoming curious thanks to the "chicken and egg" question brought up in elementary school, and read it without any guidance or pressure whatsoever. In retrospect I'm thankful for that opportunity. I would say that I was raised "religiously unaware" up to the point that I took it upon myself to learn about my parents' religious heritage, and thus my own religious heritage.
3. Do your parents (or did they when alive) believe the same?Not quite, since they were raised in much more religious households than I was, although I sense that they are considerably open minded with regard to moral standards. For that, I have always been thankful.