The $%*! frustration thread

[tushantin]

Thanks, mate. Someone told me something similar, that the greatest creativity stems from flood of emotions, even if it's experiences from reality, regardless if it's positive or negative. And this is something I've taken to heart.

Admittedly, not only am I tired of the needless drama here but I also don't get any respect for my rational advise and selfless service to these people (that motherfucker broke my spectacles; I can't temporarily see anything with my left eye). What's worse, they blamed me for everything even though I was fast asleep for those two hours of conflict; my father would beg and plead to his younger son that has little to no respect for him, but he wouldn't mind belting and swearing his elder son that actually cares. My brother even had the audacity to demand apology from my

And all I request was just one simple night to rest because I was dehydrated and haven't been able to sleep for the last two days, taking care of mother at every given moment. At least my mother and some of my friends acknowledge what we're going through, so not all's bad. Friends don't even have to help out; just visiting once in a while makes our day.

The only thing I've got to worry about now is money, and those last injections, the healing factor, depends on it. They're expensive, far from what we can afford, but I have some amount saved up so gotta use em all.

After my mother's well and my institute's over, I'm going to leave this drama behind and move to Kolkatta for winter vacation (I assume, two to four months). At least there I'll be surrounded by folks who actually respect me as much as I respect them. The disadvantages, though, are that I'll only be able to write and not work on my films or art. Which means no portfolio, and thus no animation for a few months. Dang...

Since it's a frustration thread, here's an advise to all frustrated people: Though it's rad to take advantage of negative emotions and channel them into positive creativity, like this guy, sometimes extra stress my kill your enthusiasm and your ability to think clearly. And these times, nothing works better than a piece of chocolate and a refreshing glass of chilled fruit juice, with some Celtic/New Age music (if possible, also some cold, salted slices of cucumber).   Think of it as your temporary summer vacation, and that stressful moment immediately turns into something soothing and enjoyable when you spoil yourself.

[Lord J Esq]

The underlying story here is actually pretty cool: Fast new wireless service is on the way nationwide!

What frustrates me is the way the article is written. It takes a conscious and deliberate effort to avoid using the words "electromagnetic," "frequency," and "spectrum" in an article this long whose main point is that the new network will potentially cause serious interference to communications on adjacent frequencies on the electromagnetic spectrum.

This is one of the less damning reasons that I make an effort not to read Associated Press articles whenever I catch the byline before clicking on a story. I understand the idea behind the whole "Let's write to an eighth-grade comprehension level!" that handicaps our national journalism, but this is pathetic. Look at all of those awkward references in the article to "next door"--three, to be specific. She's talking about adjacent frequencies, but we don't get words like that, and forget about learning the actual frequency intervals involved. She also mentions "air waves" instead of "radio waves"--apparently the AP target audience doesn't understand the difference.

It can't be the writer. It's got to be a dictate from editorial. The writer simply lacks the finesse to give us a dumbed-down story without making it look really dumbed-down.

I already have a blanket embargo on AP political articles, because of their incredible bias and uninformative disposition, but the rest of the AP has bugged me for years for its lack of quality, generic reporting, and unthoughtful framing. Ugh.

But, hey: fast wireless a-comin'! Unless all that shit next door gets jammed.

[GenesisOne]

That is such a tragic story, tushantin. It's so painful to read how family dynamics crumble away like that when the going gets tough, and you're left to pick up the pieces of those who wouldn't give a shit if their lives depended on it.

If it's any consolation, can you post a picture of your uncle and your brother? That way when I see them, I'll know exactly who I'm pushing down a flight of stairs. Though really, I'd never repay violence with violence.

Update: The American adaptation of the anime movie "Akira" is now worse than ever.

Selfish American producers.

[tushantin]

Thanks, GenO! Nah, no matter how bad he is, he's still my brother. True I curse him and would like to punch him in the face, but I wouldn't wish ill for him or want him to fall into any sort of major problems or worldwide humiliation, so sorry if I can't give you his picture. Here's a hint though: chicks, usually those younger than him, swoon over him.   But run away as far as they can once they get to know his wrath.

As for my uncle, he's got a Peanut and Dry Fruits factory/company at Melbourne, is semi-bald and has an Indian/Sindhi name, so it's difficult to miss. Apparently the reason for his change of mind was that he doesn't trust my father.

About that Akira script, now I see what's going on. You obviously know about Dragonball Evolution, but did you know that the movie was in the works since, well, a decade? Back then I was a kid and always went to Cyber Cafes to play games and keep up with the news. They had an excellent script prepared then, and were thinking of casting Jackie Can as Vegeta (sucks, I know) and Jet Li as Goku (well,... not too bad, but shouldn't it have been the other way around?) and thought about moving to pre-production, hoping to keep the fight scenes similar to The Matrix. Problem was, somehow various studios hindered the overall production and the project went into a Development Hell.

Development Hell happens for various reasons, but mostly it's for money and budget. It's usually because the studios have the power to green-light or delay the projects as per their consent, sometimes even if they don't have any relevance with the project. If they spot something strange, they'd put even the completed film into development hell unless it's redone for their own liking. I've heard that Akira Toriyama wanted full control over Dragonball Evolution, but the producers didn't want their project to remain under the asses of distributors, and thus had to pay him more, make him sign a contract and give him the boot. The result? Evolution sucked.

Similarly Akira has been in talks for ages now, and (although this is just an assumption) I wouldn't be surprised if the producers/directors had to change the entire setting in order to get the green-light just to film the thing.

Man, I hate the way Hollywood works! If I ever became a director/producer I'd rather work at UK, despite the risks.


EDIT: I forgot! The biggest reason for films to go in Development Hell is this:

Industry buys rights to some film, say, Dragonball. But not for making it. No, but to sell those rights for twice the money to someone else.  When nobody buys it for a long time, they just end up making a shitty movie to regain the lost value.

[Lord J Esq]

What frustrates me the most about this probable (though not inevitable) government shutdown is not that the Republicans keep demanding more after Democrats cave and meet them on the previous demands. It's that what they're demanding now is the total defunding of Planned Parenthood. That's their latest goal. It's not even about saving money now (as if it ever was; the whole Republican wish list of cuts is 3 percent of the total federal budget and consists almost entirely of cuts to programs which benefit Democratic voters); it's about screwing people over. That's what Republicans do when they get into power.

I actually agree with them that the budget is unsustainable. But cuts to discretionary non-military spending are not going to fix the deficit--which is larger than the entire discretionary non-military component of the budget--and in any event shutting down the government is just plain stupid. To wit, our troops in combat will get half a paycheck next payday, and then nothing at all till the government reopens (when they'll be back-payed). And they're "essential" workers. Nonessential workers for the government won't get any money at all for the time they were out of work. Incidentally, this is happening the week before Tax Day.

The last time the Republicans pulled this shit, they guaranteed President Clinton's reelection. This time the right-wing propaganda machine is much more powerful, and the traditional media are much less objective, but even now opinion polling suggests that Republicans will take more of the blame for this than Democrats. If that turns out to become the case, it shall not have happened to a nicer bunch, but in the meantime all these idiot Dems and independents who didn't vote in 2010, or voted GOP, ought to be licking the floor in penance for their own stupidity.

[Licawolf]

I working with a HUGE file in photoshop, it's slowing down the program so much... it takes forever to do anything! Also I find annoying the way Ctrl-z works in Photoshop, I'm too used to work on Adobe Fireworks.

[Syna]

‎"Health care is another matter," O'Reilly said. "That has to be taken very methodically because people's lives are affected. Nobody's life is affected by NPR. Nobody's life is affected by Planned Parenthood. These are options."

REALLY, Bill O'Reilly? FUCKING REALLY? I know you are an idiot of magnificent proportions, but I also know that people agree with you. How out of touch can you get, white conservative America?

[Bard_of_Time]

I'm frustrated that I live with people who agree with this. My mom and dad are really old school, and my eldest brother (who still lives with us) is of this opinion as well. Dad doesn't condone abortion and Mom feels that you should reap what you sow. And Alex... well, he's better, but still thinks that you reap what you sow.

Another frustration: I messed up my ankle. I now hobble around the house...

[Syna]

It's mightily irritating because PLANNED PARENTHOOD DOES NOT RECEIVE ABORTION SUBSIDIES TO BEGIN WITH. The money it gets from the government is devoted to health care for those who need it! O'Reilly is completely ignoring 95% of what PP does!

Not to mention that because they provide services that are proven to reduce abortions -- namely, birth control and sex ed -- PP has likely prevented more abortions than they have performed, many times over.

[ZeaLitY]

Fuck the Republican party. There are so many bullshit riders attached to that budget, it's ridiculous. There's a lot of jobbing for corporations in those riders as well. My Facebook feed, of course, is now filled with bullshit "DERP TH'TROOPS AINT GUNNA GET PIAD, THEY DUNT PUT THUR LIVES ON TH'LINE FER FREE" fucking idiocy. (Nevermind that we shouldn't have such a fucking bloated defense budget in the first place). I thought I had blocked all the wingnuts on my feed. I was wrong.

Thankfully, I've found my muse: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wiwmYjk9ARA . After my own heart.

[Shee]

Gotta love that internet that only works when it wants to.  Five or so websites fine, the rest no.  Anyways, good to be back.  Still in that limbo for another day or two...got some other very personal issues hanging over the ol' head, but generally good.

All the best to all of you. Let's do this thang.


Oh yeah, if you go see the Arthur remake I will smote you.

[rushingwind]

Through Planned Parenthood, I was connected with funding to receive an ultrasound to check out irregularities in my ovaries, in which I discovered that my right ovary is basically crap and needs to be removed at some point in the future, lest it calcify and/or become cancerous. Through Planned Parenthood, I have access to hormone therapy which is keeping my entire reproductive system somewhat in check, and is quite possibly the only thing standing between me and complete infertility.

Yes, Planned Parenthood helps women with infertility problems. HINT: Ultrasounds are not cheap. I paid $50 for mine. You can bet it cost a lot more than $50 without their help. They are even offered me infertility counselling services.

Without Planned Parenthood, I would lose access to the medicine I take, the monitoring of my reproductive system (because, in addition to making it harder to get pregnant, my non-functioning ovary has be to watched for calcification), and would likely soon be completely infertile (which, is still possible anyway, but at least this way I have a fighting chance). Cutting funding to PP would remove access to this type of thing from relatively poor women like me, who have no health insurance.

One day, if I ever get pregnant, I'm going to volunteer to be an escort for women getting abortions at Planned Parenthood. That way, when I'm walking around 8 months pregnant and escorting a patient into the clinic, all the protesters will be harassing me and leaving the woman who's actually getting an abortion alone.

I am thankful to Planned Parenthood for all they've done for me. I will challenge anyone who says they're a worthless organization. Bring it on.

[rushingwind]

Fuck the Republican party. There are so many bullshit riders attached to that budget, it's ridiculous. There's a lot of jobbing for corporations in those riders as well. My Facebook feed, of course, is now filled with bullshit "DERP TH'TROOPS AINT GUNNA GET PIAD, THEY DUNT PUT THUR LIVES ON TH'LINE FER FREE" fucking idiocy. (Nevermind that we shouldn't have such a fucking bloated defense budget in the first place). I thought I had blocked all the wingnuts on my feed. I was wrong.

Thankfully, I've found my muse: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wiwmYjk9ARA . After my own heart.

Though I am far from pro-war and I don't have any love for the Republican party (in fact, you could define me as extreme far left), I do find a serious disparity in paying the idiot congressmen while the government shuts down for their political grandstanding, and then not paying the people who are getting shot at... no matter how you feel about the wars. And it's not just the troops. Many other federal employees would have been furloughed because of this, while the political grandstanding of Congress would have paid off as they sat at home doing nothing and getting paid for it. Laziness does not get many A's in my book.

I suppose that's what bothers me about it, not just the fact that the troops themselves aren't getting paid. Rather, that they're not getting paid, many federal employees aren't getting paid, but Congress keeps getting paid, reaping ridiculous paid time-off for their grandstanding.

No matter the party, I guarantee you money talks. If their pay was on the line, the budget would have been settled weeks ago! (Though, that's just to say they're greedy. There are a very few who do not fit this rather broad characterization, though.)

[Sajainta]

I'm frustrated that I feel so alienated from my new friends.  I've known them for a while (since October), but I don't feel particularly close to any of them, and that bothers me.  I am very much used to intimate, intense friendships.  Usually after I meet someone I find interesting, a friendship is formed very quickly after hours and hours of talking.  They tell me things they've never told anyone before, even though we've just met.  It was like that with D, it was like that with my ex-best friend, and it was like that with many other friends.  So I am not used to not being close to friends.  I'm not used to people not sharing things with me.  I wonder if it's me, or if the nature of friendships between females are incredibly complex.

I've always found myself able to relate to males more than females.  I'm not good with female friendships.  I get very insecure and I can never tell when they really like me, or are just pretending.

So I don't know what to do.  I'm so used to people confiding in me.  These new friendships feel so strange.

[tushantin]

I'm frustrated with being partially blind without my glasses. Imagine how I managed to work at the cafe without being able to read or notice anything (I oould still recognize people's faces, thank you). Good thing you can't see me type. The way I'm looking at the screen, just for a few minutes to read my mail and some news, is embarrassing.