Despite my stress-driven life, I feel like... the happiest person alive today.
Thank you so much. Yes, even you guys. Thank you... so much...
For some reason I want to announce to the world about how happy I am. For some strange reason I want to hug everyone.
Well you know what? I've been melancholy, depressed, stressed, anxious, frustrated and downright miserable for the last few days and I don't know why! Everything is frustrating or disappointing or difficult, it seems, and even good things aren't satisfying. I got a new tablet! Whoop-de-frikken-doo! D':<
Why???
XDDD Goodluck with that, then. Although I must say, you are also one of the reasons I'm happy. *hugs*
I really don't know what was wrong with me, but now I can instantly be happier than ever.it's almost like I'm on X or coke or something, maybe I'm suddenly producing a bunch of serotonin and dopamine, but the happiness feels weird as it's 'unearned', as though I simply snorted blow and then I'm happy. It's a cool superpower to have, and I think I may have stumbled upon nirvana or whatever those monks always talk about.
I think I've heard of that: "Break the chains of suffering and you've achieved Nirvan"? (I refuse to add the last "a" after that word because the west has a weird way of pronouncing it) That was one of the branched beliefs from Buddhism, not exact, but something a lot of people could relate with. I guess the "unearned" factor may be your conscience, especially since "happiness" has always been considered to be earned via strange circumstances even when it shouldn't be. In either case, I think you're one person I can relate to at the moment.
*fistbump*
For some reason I'm feeling kind of melancholy today, even though I felt really good earlier in the week. There is no rational explanation for this, and the only proven cure is to go to bed.
OR drop everything that's making you sad and go have fun. OR go out and help somebody! OR just listen to your heart and ask it what it honestly wants.
Being happy is easy, and it's actually far easier than being depressed (though less easier than being frustrated). You just need to know where and how to find it -- it's not much of a treasure-hunt either. My current condition is quite stressful, due to lack of money, time and resources, and yet I feel incredibly euphoric. Perhaps it's because of my own perception of being able to find "purpose" or "treasures" in every bad and ugly garbage heap we come across; perhaps it's my knack of finding potential in people that may otherwise get buried by the ruthless world. Or perhaps it's just the effects of my meditation. I guess I just love myself and my artistic perception too much, and hence I love people, animals and everything even more so; then again, art has given me so much that nothing else ever could. Now, it's my turn to give. More than anything, I feel like an Angel today.
Albeit, I'm sure this euphoric moment won't last, so I'll make this the best one. Then again, I'm actually looking forward to melancholy again; sometimes depression can be incredibly inspiring for artistic endeavours. Then again, Lennis, you're a writer. I think you already know that.
