It's rather understandable, so you are forgiven. It's just the sentimentality between me and Mother that I valued.
To be honest, I studied the Mamoon machine and saw that throgh its structure, it is able to channel gaseous concentrations as well as fluid in the form of a vapor. That day in the Ocean Palace, I had brought a robe-pocket-sized vial of hydrofluoric acid to administer to the machine, that would ultimately result in Lavos' death.
Hydrofluoric acid is known to be very deadly. If it comes in contact with living tissue, it can devour it and stifle nerves so that the pain may not be immediate, but still iminent. High concentrations of HF acid gases can destroy the corneas of the eyes very quickly as well.
The Mammon machine fed from the energies of Lavos' blood. That is how humans were endowed with magic. Lavos had unknowingly, unwillingly, let the energies of his blood seep into some of my ancestors eons ago, who became the first Enlightened. Hydrofluoric acid was a product only found from top Kajar scholars for various experiments. Had I had the opportunity to get close enough to the Mammon machine that day, I would have given Lavos cardiac arrest most likely, as HF acid can cause this if it makes it into the blood stream.
