There, finally got this split. Given the difficulty of obtaining the things that I may fancy myself as dramatically enjoying (like commanding a non-profit with an edge, writing, etc.), I sat down tonight to try and decode things and reinforce my course towards something, given several threats to my free time that are nearing. Based on my "philosophy", I tried to assist my own decision-making in my private journal.
I'm posting it here for consideration. There are a lot of generalizations, as this was written by me for me to help decode difficulties in my pursuit of dreams. Some of my assumptions:
- The universe is meaningless
- Humans possess sentience, can create meaning, etc.
- There is no such thing as a soul or the supernatural, meaning this physical existence is all we have
- Epicurus was right; pursuit of pleasure and minimization of pain based on preserving others' same pursuit is the right path (well, that's the short version)
- Humanism is right; humanistic ethics are supreme, and the Stoics were right that a person should not neglect politics, as it is stupidity to choose to be governed poorly (unlike Epicurus, who suggested abstinence from politics)
- Lucidity and efficacy are divine
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December 2, 2011Humanism supports the Epicurean goal of enjoying the most pleasurable life by focusing on the human experience. The more sophisticated and ethical one’s mind, the more pleasurable things like statecraft or administration for a good end become, and the more patient one can become towards intellectual activities. Sophistication further represents a shift from pleasure constituting direct, obvious acts (like food and sex) to actions and events that reinforce and construct meaningfulness. A sophisticated mind can also better gauge the potential for future pleasures at the cost of present sacrifice. However, the greater the sacrifice, the bigger the risk is inherent in the future pleasure not materializing, and the sacrifice having been for naught. Time is the constraining factor on the enjoyment of pleasure in this life, and wasting time (different from enjoying unconstructed time) is often the engine of regret and the greatest threat to happiness.
As it was in the classic era, most people on earth have their lives determined by “fate”, or a several general factors that shape a person’s life while allowing for smaller variations and chance here and there. Psychology, genetics, region, language, culture, religion, economies, and other factors intersect to determine a person’s likeliest path in life. The system of our civilization provides for much of this, guiding people to what they naturally are fated to do. The chemist passionate about science and who possesses the right mix of externalities will pursue chemistry, and otherwise has a normal life according to their culture, deriving pleasure and meaning from its constructs. The chemist who isn’t passionate enough or doesn’t possess the right externalities will settle into a mediocre office job and be satiated by the pleasures a normal life entails as well. This mediocre one may always think of the road untaken and long for it, especially in moments of pursuit of chemistry as a hobby, but their lack of choice is assent to mediocrity.
No one does anything they do not want to do. (At least until mind control and some kind of neuromuscularly-enforced slavery are invented.) The conventional slave would rather live as a slave than die, and so on.
There are two dimensions to pleasure in life; colloquially, the journey and the destination. To reuse the chemist example, a chemist may enjoy the “journey” in the work of research, or enjoy the “destination” of the salary given for synthesizing compounds for a large company.
The greatest possible life combines the most pleasurable journey and most pleasurable destination. Many decisions are made as a balance between the risks of wasting time without pleasure for a pleasurable reward, and this acts as a form of fate.
Western society and many religions promote strong ideas of “attaining happiness”, viewed as a state of being happy that persists after completion of hard work and sacrifice. As an example, Christianity facilitates a great deal of suffering by promising endless heaven in the afterlife, justifying damaging and warping pain in the present in its adherents. The pain is further compounded by the concept of sin, which often punishes adherents with guilt for undertaking certain pleasure-seeking activities, such as sex. How warped people become when life is a burden, and relief through the most basic human urges is a cause for guilt and suffering! The Western focus on “attaining happiness” also facilitates the capitalist exploitation of labor. Workers culturally believe that happiness will come after much work and sacrifice, and are thus less likely to demand a bit of happiness in the here and now through better conditions and a system of greater equality. Nowhere is this more enshrined than in the “American Dream”; the media reinforces it as well, through narcissistic depictions of the rich and famous.
The system continues in large part because the first world does have an abundance of pleasures outside work. First world citizens are flooded with constant entertainment and diversions, helping to soothe the condition of working a hated job each day. This situation may reinforce humanity’s short-sightedness. A group, hamstrung by exploitative labor conditions and far from “attaining happiness”, may be more easily disposed to abusing more basic pleasures, such as drugs and alcohol. A person who, except for the promise of “attaining happiness”, may not otherwise stomach years of mindless labor, is especially susceptible to relieving the conditions of their life of grinding by turning to substance or baser things, such as pleasure from meanness or privilege. And when the ultimate goal of “attaining happiness” does not materialize or is threatened? Something like that is happening in several developing countries, which have seen a deluge of competent graduates without jobs for them to fill. China’s seen a spike in young adult suicides for this reason.
Getting back to fate, a person’s capacities to enjoy the journey and destination functionally shape their behavior. Let’s use an example of two people who desire to be elected officials. An evil person, born with a preternatural patience or ability to stomach mundaneness and image-building, as well as an enjoyment of power and its externalities, may easily decide the cost of becoming a politician is worth it. A good person, desiring to be an elected official to help the world, but possessing a strong ethical backbone and a need for consistent self-identification with certain unpalatably noble ethics, may not be able to stomach the process of image-building and patience necessary to gain office, nor the trappings of corruption and abuse that lie in most power structures. The evil one is more likely to attain it.
Power attracts those who delight in the pleasure of power and its acquisition. Rarer is the politician who merely enjoys bureaucracy itself, and rarest of all is a “Cincinnatus”, a most reluctant, though capable leader who neither seeks power for pleasure nor enjoys the process of its acquisition. (His opposition of the lower classes excused, of course.)
This is fate, and deviation from it inordinately difficult—not only in achieving a course change, but in
enjoying it. Most of the world would enjoy the benefits of being a billionaire, but beyond those unequipped to achieve that in the current system, many people would not be able to stomach becoming a billionaire—whether from ethical problems or natural bent towards other activities—and many more would judge the risk of wasting one’s entire life on trying to make money to be above the minuscule chance of succeeding. Several people may enjoy painting, but weigh the risk of ultimately having a destitute life above the slim chance of their painting becoming a livelihood. Cultural attitudes towards security and wealth, as well as fear of poverty, shape innumerable decisions.
One may thus decide to adopt a decision-making process that seeks to maximize pleasure from the journey and destination, which, in our current society of office jobs and menial labor, is often a balance of grinding and payoff. However, a process that always runs to the best average balance may still be imperfect. Lack of information complicates everything. A person may choose one job or another, lacking the information that if they quickly learned a different subject or acquired a different certification, they might be able to achieve a much more pleasurable life in a different area. More obviously, a talented artist who suffers from negative perfectionism or self-esteem issues may neglect their craft, having decided the risk of being destitute is not worth what they perceive as the slim chance they would be successful—when in actuality, their esteem issues or fears are preventing them from recognizing that they are indeed talented. Worse, a person without sufficient self-knowledge may not know what makes them happy. Worst of all, a person may never be able to know what makes them happy without risking things and having certain experiences.
Fears (especially of poverty) and frames of reference pollute the entire system. In some respect, the Ahabs of the world are the lucky ones, for they have guiding, incinerating passions, uncomplicated by fears or value decisions. They are perhaps also the most imprisoned by fate, but this isn’t necessarily bad, as guiding, incinerating passions can be some of the most rewarding and pleasurable. Nor is fate itself necessarily a “bad” concept, as ultimately, the universe is meaningless, and we are all fated to die.
But the problem remains for reasonable people: what is the best way, in a world full of opportunities (though fragile and dwindling), to chart a successful course for a life of the most pleasure in journey and destination, limited of course by rigidly adhering to humanist ethics and vision, and abstaining from destroying the same Epicurean pursuit of others?
Some ideas:
1. Pursue interesting experience, and see the world. The Grand Tour, beyond its benefits to aristocratic prestige, was an invaluable source of learning and experience. Given the power of imagination and humanity’s tendency to project rosy happiness on to incomplete pictures of desire, the genuine article should be tested and understood before committed to in cases of grand risk (and others, where possible). One should stay mindful that experience can never be complete—there are as many things to see, places to go, and people to meet as there are stars in the sky. (Well, maybe not *that* many.)
2. Do not neglect basic pleasures. I’ve discovered that it is in the hearts of some dreamers to think of enduring extremely hard situations with gusto, underestimating that one’s state of mind is very different in a situation with low security, food, etc., or a hostile environment. Carry Maslow’s hierarchy of needs in your baggage train, and muster creature comforts and allies of friendship to your comforting advantage. Ensure that you will be comfortable where you will go, or take pains to ensure that the absence of comfort is completely and utterly justified. Per #1, spend some time roleplaying the discomfort you shall be in, and see if your passion is maintained.
3. Analyze your predilections. Most people, and perhaps most businesses, turn to self-analysis only when they’ve failed at something. Instead, analyze yourself in all seasons and situations. Most of all, analyze your passions and predilections; strive to know where they come from, and why they motivate you to seek something. Celebrate them, for passions and inclinations are part of what makes you alive. Those fires will not vanish under a microscope; they may reveal details that help you stoke them hotter. If you know why you want to do something, you are probably more equipped to reap the rewards with fewer pains.
4. Become a totalitarian of your personal time, at least at first. Time is too precious to squander, especially early on when decisions and investments will be magnified by the longer temporal span they pass through. It’s human nature to procrastinate and take things for granted. Become aware that every minute of your life takes you closer to death; don’t fear this, but use it to develop a keen awareness of the power which you hold to use the time available to you. Do things with a commanding zeal for life. And do not confuse this with “work yourself to death.” Being zealous means confronting your obligations and pains with the most Stoic and straightforward thrust, which shall leave you with the greatest possible bloc of free time for your passions and pleasures.